I hung in there for as long as I could. Eventually, the hypocrisy was too much for me. The behavior felt so un-Christian. Just normal, natural human behavior, as ugly as that can sometimes be.
I prayed … a lot. I asked God if He wanted me to stay. Maybe I could do something that might help the deteriorating situation. I wrote a letter to the board of elders, the Session, as they called it. I’m not sure if the idea was God’s or mine, but I took a lot of time with that letter, praying my way through it, even including some Bible quotes from Jesus. No response. No visible result. I prayed some more. But no clear direction.
So I left that church behind. As I walked away, I carried with me questions, the most all-encompassing question being: if what I saw at that church isn’t true Christianity, what is? I may have given up on church, but I wasn’t about to give up on Jesus.
Have you had a similar experience? Do you have similar questions?
November 11, 2020 at 11:08 am
I grew up as a Christian in a house church with a very spiritually aware pastor. When He passed, Holy Spirit sent me to a church which is very good, but Holy Spirit told me I wasn’t to join the church, but to be unified with the Body of Christ. While still a very young Christian, the Lord gave me a vision of a vast group of people who had been hurt or rejected by the church or who had rejected religion. This year, the Lord told me that He had taught me what He wanted to teach me about operating inside the tent (church) and He was going to be teaching me about operating outside the tent. This vast group of people are looking for True Food from the Lord, not changed and distorted by man or by the enemy. The Lord is bringing forth True Fathers and True Teachers to feed His people with True Food.
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