Do you ever feel like there is an ongoing battle raging within you? Do you feel two sides of your personality fighting it out? Each side has opposite purposes, and each is trying to win control over you—right? Does it feel like those old cartoons, with a little devil on one shoulder and a little angel on the other, each trying to convince you to go their way?
Does it sometime feel like YOU are a battlefield?
I’m listening to an audio version of the book The Screwtape Letters, by CS Lewis. Have you ever read it? Great book. And fun, as well as a bit weird. But it definitely has gotten me thinking. I think I’ve believed in the reality of Satan for as long as I’ve believed in the reality of God. And at times I’ve believe in the battle between the two of them.
But now I’m convinced that I am one of their battlefields. And I’m tired of it. Oh, I know—it’s part of life. Whether we believe or not, the battle rages on. And I think not believing is the most dangerous policy, for it gives the advantage to Satan.
Anyway, I want to see if I can affect the game a bit. I want to be more than just the battlefield. I want to make more of an effort to join the fight, on the side of God.
What do you think about this battle idea?
July 24, 2017 at 9:30 pm
Yes, I feel this way too. Two parts of me have been perceived. I see them as though they were unconquerable. These parts exist in conflict whenever I begin thinking about them, yet, somehow, when I am focused on moment by moment existence I am in harmony. What is this conflict between who I am in harmony and who I am in thought? Your reflections are very valuable to me. Your heart is precious. Your love is evident. Thank you for doing what you do! Sincerely, a friend
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